So this post is a bit personal, and I know this isn’t the first time I’ve deal with this topic. Still, I’ve been dealing with it again lately. I have a surprise for y’all next week, actually, so this ties into that a little.
Lately I’ve been worried that my writing sucks. I mean, I’ve felt that my writing is the crap of the crap, worst than even the worst books that everyone hates. What happened was that I pressured myself so hard that writing became such a displeasure that it took forever to do anything.
Then I noticed that my side projects were getting done more quickly — and I felt the writing was better. This wasn’t necessarily true, but I realized that I spent less time during the writing stressing about how people will hate it or think I suck for self-publishing or anything like that.
So I’m going to try and just write the story I feel is in me. If a reader thinks I suck as a writer and self-publishing is beyond retarded, whatever, I’ll stress about all my concerns that after the story is done, on the computer and saved and edited.
I’m also going to try something else. I’m going to stop worrying about things I can’t control. If a reader doesn’t like me as a writer simply because I self-publish (which honestly hasn’t happened to me yet, it’s just a big anxiety of mine), then I can’t do anything about that. If a person thinks my writing is crap and I’ve done everything in my power (at my current level; I’m constantly trying to grow as writer, and that will never change), then I can’t do anything to change their mind — and I shouldn’t want or try to. I’m just not that person’s cup of tea.
With any luck, this mindset just might kick in! Maybe then I’ll get some stress-free work in.